this afternoon i drove to king soopers and sat in the parking lot in my car for 45 minutes and then turned around and drove home. i don't know why. there must be something wrong with me. i think i kinda just wanted to find someone i knew there and pretend like it was a coincidence. but instead i just watched all the people rushing in and rushing back out, yelling at their kids and screeching their brakes. and i wondered how many of them wanted to be there and how many more of them were happy. i don't know. my mind has been wandering all over the place lately.