dear

she was a fighter
she was a winner
her favorite color was pink
she loved tennis
she played catch phrase
she sang in the choir
she made up songs under the stars
she bought underwear from thriftstores because she thought it was funny
she made her own icecream
she listened to natalie grant
she went to california to see audio adrenaline
she was brave
she was genuine
she liked disney land
she made impressions on everyone she met
she liked popcorn
she was an actress
she loved my fair lady
she was determined
she was gorgeous
she talked about god
she was my friend
and i miss so much that i think my heart might just stop
when i think about her
i've never cried so much in one day
i've never felt so cheated
i've never been angrier
i've never wanted to throw up in church before today
i've never hugged so many strangers
i've never wanted to scream so bad
i've never felt so mute
i've never seen anything so beautiful
i've never seen anything so disturbing
i've never wanted to flip off a pastor so badly before
i've never realized how much i take everyone around me for granted
and i've never regreted it so much

the pink balloons floating away were the prettiest things i've ever seen. what an amazingly beautiful day.

hali ashlan theander
july 30 1992- january 3 2008